Love & Bliss

[xcrisis]

These past few weeks have been incredible. I heard my babies heart beat for the first time two weeks ago, I cried. And I saw my baby six weeks ago. He didn't look like a baby yet, just a little dot, but he was there. I cried then too. Seeing and hearing our baby has made Jeffrey and I even closer. We're practically inseparable now. Besides the classes we didn't have together. And the few times I have hung out with my friends, or Jeffrey with his. But whenever we're not doing anything, we're always together. I don't know if it's because we have to be, or if it's because we want to be. I know I wanna be with him all the time, but I don't know if he feels the same.

Well... besides whenever I drag him to somewhere private to have sex. Which we've been doing a LOT lately. Usually two, sometimes three times a day. I think i've developed a problem. Well, more like a constant craving. Like, for instance, we're at the lake. We found this cute little hidden area right beside the water. You can only see it if you walk to it. We had been hiking when we found it. Boaters can't see us, and any passerby's can't see us. Most people stick to the trails, we, I mean I, had decided that we should explore farther out. And then we found this.

And at this current moment, I am rolling over on my side to look at a panting Jeffrey. We had been swimming when my craving kicked into high gear, so we had made our way to our spot, and got to it. I don't know if Jeffrey finds it awkward to have sex with my right now. I'm showing a little bit. Well, my bumps pretty big. Since i'm so tiny, they warned me about it. The doctors said I would probably show early, and my belly would seem bigger faster. But I had no reason to be concerned if I gained to much. My body was just compensating for the weight I didn't have.

I smiled at Jeffrey as my breathing slowed down. I snuggled up to his bare chest and looked up at him. "Getting tired of me yet?" I giggled and kissed his lips before standing up and getting dressed. We were suppose to be camping out for a few days(up to a week), and we needed to book our camping spot before it got taken. I wanted a spot right on the beach, so I could swim whenever I wanted. Considering summer just started, I wanted to get as much swimming time in as possible. It was a good pregnancy exercise too. So that was a plus. And i've been sort of bipolar lately, so I would probably have a tantrum if my spots taken. That would not be pretty.

"Okay, now hurry and get dressed. I don't want our spot to get taken."

outfit; here

[jeffrey]

We'd slowly gotten closer over the past few weeks, and my parents and friends have gotten used to having Kali around; I even got along with her friends. We stuck close, talked each other out of those dark moments when the rumors and insults got to us, and, well, had sex. Like, alot of it. I was fine with her intimate craving, no complaints on this end. We'd come to the lake often, especially once summer started. We'd only been out a couple weeks, and we'd already found a hidden place by the lake.
We'd been swimming when another craving hit Kali, and she'd practically dragged me out of the water and up to our place. My light green eyes were focused on the overhead canopy, my chest heaving as my heartbeat slowly returned to normal. "No." I reply honestly, smiling as she kissed me before standing to pull her clothes on. I sit up and lazily stretch, like a cat in the sun. I gasp in mock offense as Kali tosses my clothes at me.
"Damn, one moment you're ripping my clothes off and the next you're shoving them at me." I grumble, standing up and pulling my boxers on, followed by my gym shorts and I decide to go shirtless.

[xcrisis]

I giggle and finish pulling my shirt on over my bathing suite top. I turned toward Jeffrey and poked his abs. The past few weeks they've been even more prominent. I would be sorry, but i'm not. Abs are my thing. I rubbed my belly and started up the little path that leads back to Jeffrey's truck. "Okay, remember. Site three, right by the water. It has a light and a grill. As well as a fire put and some electrical outlets for our phones." I climbed in the truck and stretched out on the seat. My head on Jeffrey's leg and my feet out the window. I found that laying on my back is way more comfortable than laying on my side now that my belly is getting big.

-fast forward to the campsite-

"Okayy. Now please tell me you packed my protein bars and slim jims? I want them now. Oh and some fish. I hate fish but I want some. Damn cravings." I was laid out on the beach, my feet in the water, calling up to Jeffrey who was pitching the tent. The last time I camped out, I was three. I have no idea how to pitch a tent. "And after we eat we should go swimming. Our swim time earlier got interrupted." I grinned as I sat up to wink at Jeffrey. Giggling as I laid back down. My shirt and sweatpants were off now, just my bathing suite remained. So I was pretty comfortable. And the temperature felt great. It was a perfect day for camping.

[jeffrey]

I roll my eyes as she pokes my abs and watch as she rubs her stomach. I had to admit, it was odd to have sex with someone who was already pregnant, but pass up on perfectly good sex? Never. I follow as Kali makes her way back to the truck and I climb up, starting it with a lopsided grin as she set her head on my leg and her feet out the window.
-le skip-
"Yes, you tyrant." I reply snappily, stabbing one of the tent poles into the ground. "Shit, Kali, can you be anymore of a backseat driver?" I add, shaking my head as my sandy brown hair falls into my eyes. I turn from the now complete tent and dig around in a bag and toss her a slim jim and a protein bar, pulling out the fish I'd bought earlier today. I amble over to the grill, I'd already put charcoal and gas on it, all that remained was to light it before letting it turn to coals. I strike a match, tossing it onto the charcoal and taking a step back to avoid the heat.

[xcrisis]

I sighed and stood up. I was already snacking on my slim jim. My protein bar was close behind. "Well Mr. Snappy." I mumbled as I walked up to him. I sat down in the sand next to the grill and start on my protein bar. I easily threw the trash away into the bin at my feet. I leaned against a rock that was jutting out from the ground and watched Jeffrey work. "I think we should come up with some baby names. We haven't talked about them yet. And I wanna start calling the baby something. I mean, I know we have two weeks to go before we find out the gender, but I still wanna call him or her something. Oh, and I never asked. What gender are you hoping for? I want a little girl." I smiled up a Jeffrey, and pulled my legs up as far as they would go. Which was close to my chest, but my stomach kept them from going to far.

[jeffrey]

"Well, Miss. Bossy." I reply, glancing over as she came to sit down. I understood she was pregnant and couldn't overexert herself, but it seemed I had to do everything. Definitely not cool. I roll my light green eyes and poke the fire with the poker, spreading the coals out so that they'd even out quicker so I could put the fish on sooner. I squat down beside Kali, shrugging my shoulders. "I like Charlotte, but not as a first name, maybe middle. Oh, and the first name should be hyphenated." I say, nodding slightly. I'd thought about it, sure, but hadn't decided what would sound good as a hyphen. "I want a son, but doesn't every guy?" I add. It'd be nice to have someone to teach how to fish, do man stuff with and -certainly- teach them how to pitch a tent so that they could 'help' me on camping trips.. so that I didn't have to do it. Greedy? Sure, but it was a damn good idea.

[xcrisis]

I grinned at Jeffrey and kissed him on the lips. Not rough and demanding like my kisses have been lately, but more soft and gentle. "Thank you for doing a lot for me lately. These pregnancy hormones are kicking my ass. Making me tired. But luckily i'm starting to get my energy back. I can start doing more around the house, and when we go places." I watched as he poked the fire, causing an ember to float through the air and fall next to me. I covered it with sand and spread my legs back out in front of me, my mind wandering. Charlotte was really pretty. And something hyphenated? Hhm.

"Alyssa-Anne Charlotte?" I had been thinking Alyssa and Anne separately, but they never sounded right by themselves. And I never thought to put them together until now. I hadn't really thought of any boy names. I had been having dreams about having a little boy, and usually that meant I was having the opposite gender. I looked it up, and ninety five percent of the time that was true. So I was probably gonna have a little girl. Which made me happy. But we wouldn't know officially for another two weeks.

"And if we have a boy... Uhm... I have no names for a little boy. You should come up with a name." I smiled and rested my head on the back of the rock. I looked up at the sky and smiled. The sky was so clear and perfect. It was seriously such a nice day. If only the fish would hurry up so we could go swim.

[jeffrey]

I smile back at her and she leans over to kiss me. It wasn't lust-filled or commanding like the recent ones have been, but instead sweet. It was a nice change, and -honestly- if she was ready again I didn't know what I'd do. Last time had wore me the hell out. "Its fine, babe." I reply, the nickname escaping from my lips without a second thought. We weren't really a couple. Fuck buddies? No, more than that. I honestly had no clue what we were.. but I liked it.
My mouth quirks to the side thoughtfully at her name suggestion. Alyssa-Anne Charlotte Ingram. It had a nice ring to it. I smile and nod, pulling Kali to me for a hug. "I love that." I confirm, chuckling happily. It really was a nice name, and she could choose a name from any of the tree. Charlotte or Charlie is she didn't like her first names, Alyssa or Anne from her first; or she could go by her full first name- the possibilities were endless.
"Jeffrey Junior." I say teasingly as she tells me I should think up a boy name, but shake my head. I was never going to name a son after me- no. I stand back up to poke the fire again; still not ready. I make a 'hm' noise deep in my throat thoughtfully. "Maybe.. Ethan. Ethan Nicholas." I say, though I shrug my shoulders. "We can sit on it." I say finally, putting the bars back on the grill before beginning to lay the fish out.

[xcrisis]

Ethan Nicholas. That's a beautiful name. I could see our son now. Running around tossing a football with Jeffrey. Learning to fish. And then eventually graduating high school with a football scholarship. I mean, I could see him doing other things, if he didn't want to play football. Whatever he wanted to do, I would support him. And if she was a girl, I would support her too. As long as she didn't want to be a prostitute... If she wanted to sell herself for money then I would be upset. More than upset. I would be disappointed. But hopefully that didn't happen. I hope my baby grows up to be smart and successful.

"Ethan Nicholas, or Alyssa-Anne Charlotte. Beautiful. I can;t wait until we found out what are baby is. I wanna start shopping for baby clothes and picking out nursery colors." I grinned and eagerly watched the fish cook. Before I was pregnant I HATED fish. Now i'm craving it really bad. It was strange. But apparently the baby needs some fish, so how could I complain? My baby wants what my baby wants. And when the fish finished cooking I got my piece and happily sat down to eat it. Munching away on the amazingly weird taste. It wasn't the greatest food, but it was food. And when I swallowed the last bite, my craving was satisfied.

I stood up and threw my trash away, happily walking towards the water. I never payed attention to the 'wait an hour after eating before you swim' rule. I never got cramps when I was little, so I never payed attention to the rule. "Now it's time to swimm." I grinned and settled down into the water. Floating just a bit farther out. Happily watching the clouds float past in the sky. I loved being in water. Especially with this belly, I felt weightless while I was in the water. My back didn't hurt as much. It was so relaxing.

[jeffrey]

I nod slightly as she goes on about picking out baby clothes and nursery colors. I wasn't exactly keen on it- I could wait about eight months. I grab the spatula to flip the fish, standing back after. Once they're done, I put one on a paper plate and hand it to Kali, taking a couple bites out of mine. I wasn't a huge fish fan, but what Kali wanted, Kali got. Maybe it was because I felt guilty. It was my fault she was pregnant- but not totally, right? Eh, whatever, it had happened and now I had to live with it.
I sigh as she races out to the water and toss my plate and leftover fish away; either she had no energy at all or too much. "Haven't you heard of waiting fifteen minutes?" I call, walking after Kali, though I plop myself down on the beach, lean forward to rest my arms on my knees. I didn't feel like swimming, and she didn't need me by her side every second of the day.

[xcrisis]

I laughed at Jeffrey and grinned. "Yeah, but I never pay attention to that. Plus, i'm not doing anything. Just floating." I ducked under the water to wet my whole head, and then resurfaced. I smiled at the sky and floated for about an hour. By the time I decided to get out, my skin was all pruney and dry. I felt like I needed a shower. But that could wait until later. At the moment, I wanted more food. Being in the water always made me hungry. I walked up the bank and went through our food supply, grabbing what I was looking for. An apple and a water bottle. I may be craving slim jims and protein bars, but I had to eat healthy things as well. So I had to be responsible and actually choose healthy foods.

-le skip-

The rest of the day was pretty uneventful. After eating my apple and swimming again for another two hours, I took a three hour nap. By that time is was around five. So we had hamburgers and lays chips for dinner, and for desert I pulled Jeffrey into the tent for some more private time. I had gave him a little space while I swam, since he needed some space. He never said he did, but I could tell my constantly being around him was starting to get to him. Maybe he didn't even see it, but I could. So I gave him a few hours space, and then a bit of sexy time. A guys dream, I presumed.

At the moment we're sitting around our camp fire, the starts were just starting to come out. We were roasting marshmallows and sharing childhood stories. I was telling Jeffrey about the time I got stuck on a roof. I had climbed up there on ladder, but as I got myself on the roof, the ladder fell. And I was stuck up there for three hours before someone heard my screams and came to get me. My foster parents had been at a club, and they didn't know I had gone up there. It was safe to say I was given to another foster home. Considering I was five and left home alone so they could go drinking. They weren't the most resposible parents. I actually don't think they were allowed anymore foster kids after that. Since they had driven home drunk and got DUI's. I finished my story and popped my marshmallow in my mouth. I laid my head on Jeffrey's shoulder, and waited for him to share his story. I wanted to know more about him. I already knew a lot, but not about his childhood. That was something I wanted to learn about.

[jeffrey]

I roll my light green eyes at her reply, and stay sitting on the shore. Soon I get bored and wander back to the campsite, crawling in for a nap- all this intimate time with Kali was a workout.. but it kept me in good shape; so why whine? When I wake up, my baby mama is laying beside me, and it's clear we've been asleep for quite a few hours. I climb out and rummage through our cooler, putting some burgers on the grill.
The smell of food must wake Kali up, because she comes out and I offer her a smile. We eat in companionable silence before she pulls me into the tent- wonder what her intent was? When we come out, she pulls out a bag of marshmellows and I let out a chuckle; what had happened to the fish and slim jims? Soon we cuddle up in front of the fire, her head nestled into my shoulder. It was such a far cry from the awkwardness between us at the beginning- we'd come far.
I stay silent as Kali tells me her childhood story. It was sad, actually. "Not much to tell." I say lamely as she says it's my turn to share. "I don't know. My first kiss is when I was five.. to Marie Perez.. and she had cooties." I chuckle, shrugging my broad shoulders. I really wasn't very deep, didn't have any interesting back story.

[xcrisis]

I smiled as I gently planted a kiss on Jeffrey's lips. Little boys always thought of little girls that way until they hit puberty. Girls had cooties, and it was gross to have anything to do with them. Kali giggled and looked up at Jeffrey as she settled her head back down against his shoulder. She popped another marshmallow in her mouth and sighed in content. She was relaxed, and her stomach was being filled with delicious warm gooeyness. She swallowed and poked the fire with a long stick. "My first kiss was a kiss I want to forget. I was eleven, and I was playing with my then best friend Jason Martin. We were playing hide and seek, and when he found me, he randomly planted one on me. I screamed and ran off to my foster mom. I had started crying on my way there. I thought it was so gross. He was like my brother. We haven't spoken to each other since then." I sighed unhappily at the memory. He was actually like my brother. We were inseparable until that day. "It was actually kind of funny. My reaction. I actually screamed! I was embarrassed after a while. Our parents made us write apologies to each other, but other than that we had no more communication." I had kept that letter for all of three months. Then I had been sent to another foster home and I lost it. Guess it didn't really matter that much to me.