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Post by Jason Monroe on Sept 1, 2013 22:16:28 GMT -5
I hear mumbling from his room though I don't really want to eavesdrop. After a minute, I hear a crash and jump to my feet, walking to him and opening the door quickly. I look in just in time to see him lighting his lighter and I sit in front of him, taking his hand and the lighter. "Calden, what's wrong?" I ask, looking at him before the picture. I let his hand go and allow him to have the lighter. It was obvious what his plans were and I was going to allow it. It would get the thoughts away. "Want me to find something so you don't burn yourself or the room?" I ask, looking up at him slightly.
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Post by Calden LeCoste on Sept 1, 2013 22:22:10 GMT -5
I ignore him as he opens the door, the corner of the picture catching and I hold it, hazel eyes watching the flames lick across Mark's face. Go the fuck away. I growl, pushing at Jason with an angry look on my face as the flame reaches my fingers and I drop the corner as it turns to ash on the floor, not catching anything on fire. I reach for the picture that had the writing on the back and click my lighter again. "Leave me the hell alone." I snap, a sad yet crazed look on my face as a few more tears escape my hazel eyes as I light the second picture.
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Post by Jason Monroe on Sept 1, 2013 22:28:41 GMT -5
His words hurt but I don't leave. I look at the picture as it burns before he drops it as it turns to ashes. A frown crosses my face when I see his tears fall down his face. My arms wrap around him after he lights the second one and I look at the picture, blowing out the fire just as it leaves only Calden and I smile. "There...that looks better," I say, kissing his cheek. I knew what was wrong and I wasn't going to let him push me away. My hand rests on his cheek and I smile, rubbing it lightly before kissing his forehead. "
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Post by Calden LeCoste on Sept 2, 2013 8:33:13 GMT -5
I stiffen as his arms wrap around me and drop the half of the picture that had me on it, glaring at Jason. I wanted to melt into his arms, for him to tell me eveything was okay. No. I wouldn't be that weak. What if everything Jason said was a lie.. a phase? My hands land on his chest to push him away and I stand up, pointing to the door. " I told you to get the fuck out!" I shout, pulling at Jason's hand and shoving him towards the door, my anger and heartache giving me the strength to do so. I slam the door and turn the lock, hoping that it would actually work. A series of sobs escape me and I pick up my lighter and the half burned picture to light it again, the flames crawling over my face before I drop the ashes and reach for the remaining photo.
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Post by Jason Monroe on Sept 2, 2013 14:25:33 GMT -5
My heart breaks as he actually pushes me out of his room and I kind of want to force myself in though I knew he would need time. I plop down beside the door after he locks it and huff lightly, resting my head against the wall. There had to be something I could do to help him get over this though I wasn't that sure. Not many things came to mind when it came to making him happy and I wasn't sure if I would be able to make things better for him. "Calden," I barely whisper, looking at the door in hopes that he would somehow hear me and come outside though it was unlikely.
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Post by Calden LeCoste on Sept 2, 2013 14:34:42 GMT -5
The second one catches and I stare at it, dropping it before the flames could reach my fingers. I don't turn my lighter off, instead staring at the flame as it danced before holding up my arm and running the lighter under it. I wince and turn it off, dropping it to the floor as I look at the red strip of skin and bite my lower lip before looking around for my knife again. I move the hem of my boxers down again, looking at the cuts that were already there before angrily ripping it across my skin, blood flowing down to the floor as more tears fall down my face and I start to sob, dropping the knife and putting my head in ym hands. I rock back and forth like a mental patient, wishing that I could actually be one- didn't they get all sorts of drugs and were unconnected with reality? That'd be nice.
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Post by Jason Monroe on Sept 2, 2013 14:41:12 GMT -5
I sigh after a minute and hear Calden begin to sob. I open the door, knowing the lock didn't work and look at him as he sobs, the blood and burns both catching my attention. My hand reaches for him after I sit and I pull him against me, not caring if he pushed me out again. He needed to be comforted. "Hey...I'm not that sure what happened but I'm sorry," I whisper, rubbing his hand lightly. My lips meet his head in a tender kiss and I only hope that he'll feel better soon. "Wanna get some ice on that burn?" I ask, not really sure what topic to approach but not wanting to make him want to leave.
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Post by Calden LeCoste on Sept 2, 2013 14:46:36 GMT -5
I ignore him as the door opens before I'm pulled against him. I want to push Jason away, I wanted to run, but I needed someone- I'd always needed someone. I sob harder, curling up on his lap and wrapping my arms around his torso. I start to shake my head when Jason apologizes before his lips meet mine and I hesitantly kiss him back before he pulls away. My lower lip trembles and I bury my face in his neck, hoping that he wouldn't mind. "I-I.. Thanks." I mumble, more tears falling down my face. I shake my head quickly as he asks about ice. I wanted to suffer- I deserved to. Everything was always my fault, I always ended up hurting people.
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Post by Jason Monroe on Sept 2, 2013 14:55:04 GMT -5
I hold him closer as his arms wrap around my torso and hope that he wasn't really that upset with me. He kissed me back but that really didn't mean anything. One hand holds his hand and I frown, nodding when he thanks me. "Anytime," I whisper, frowning after he shakes his head. I keep him against me and rub his back, rocking slowly before picking him up and sitting on his bed with him. "Want me to get you anything then?" I ask softly as I hold him.
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Post by Calden LeCoste on Sept 2, 2013 16:52:52 GMT -5
I keep my face buried in his neck as his hand runs down my back as we rock back and forth before Jason picked me to to sit beside me on my bed. I curl against him, hoping to find some comofrt and safety in his embrace as more tears fall unbidden down my cheeks. "D-Don't l-leave m-e." I sniffle, tightening my grip around him and fidgeting with the hem of my boxers so that they covered my cuts, and would hopefully slow the bleeding a bit.
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Post by Jason Monroe on Sept 3, 2013 16:11:22 GMT -5
My arms wrap around him tighter than before. A frown crawls over my face as the tears continue to fall. "Don't worry. I would never think about it," I say, pulling him against me again. My fingers trail down his side and I look down at him before wiping off his tears. "Is there anything you want? I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy," I whisper, kissing his head before holding him against me again.
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Post by Calden LeCoste on Sept 3, 2013 16:34:00 GMT -5
My lower lip trembles for a moment after he speaks and I nod a bit, not meeting his gaze. What is Jason was lying? What if he had some ulterior motive behind everything he said or did? More tears fall down my face and I wipe at my cheeks angrily, sniffling softly. "I-I'm cold.." I mumble, escaping his grasp and pulling back the covers to crawl under, holding it up for Jason so that he could hold me again. I liked his embrace, I felt safe.
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Post by Jason Monroe on Sept 3, 2013 20:42:41 GMT -5
My head rests on his as he cries more and I had no idea how to help. When he says he's cold, I'm about to pull him under the covers when he beats me under. I crawl in beside Calden and pull him to me, holding him close and running my hand through his hair. "Go ahead and sleep. I'll be right here when you wake up," I say, kissing his head and holding him closer to me so that he wouldn't be cold. His arms and chest were cold and I wasn't sure what it was. It wasn't that cold inside but there could always be the chance that I was getting sick.
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Post by Calden LeCoste on Sept 4, 2013 17:19:24 GMT -5
I crawl up to lay on top of him, his body warm against mine. I rest my head on Jason's chest, closing my eyes and sniffling once. "Mmmm." I mumble after he speaks, already half asleep. I snuggle closer against him after he kisses my head, the stinging pain on my hip and my arm keeping my attention. Soon, though, I fall asleep, my eyes closing, a peaceful expression on my face.
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Post by Jason Monroe on Sept 4, 2013 18:11:20 GMT -5
I smile and hold Calden as he crawls onto me and keep my arms against him before looking down at him. He was already beginning to sleep. My arms stay around him and I rest my head back, sleeping once he sleeps. I was only hoping that he would be okay in the morning. My arms stay around him the entire night as we sleep and I'm sure that I must have pulled the covers closer o us because I woke up with them wrapped around us.
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