Blinding Light; Attyston

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Connor kissed him gently, watching him rinse his hair before he did the same, and stepped right back into his arms again. Blue eyes closed slowly and Connor let out a soft breath. "I-I'm sorry.." He whispered quietly.

[Attyston Thomas]

The moment all the soap and suds were out of his hair be was right back against me, arms wraping around me again. "Don't be sorry, you didn't do anything wrong." I purr, pushing his hair out of his face.

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Connor had so many retirts for that. He didn't dare voice them though, just kept his eyes closed and focused on Attyston right there next him.

[Attyston Thomas]

I press my lips to his forehead before reaching back to cut off the water, sticking an arm out for a towel before stepping out. I hand Connor the other one before starting to dry my hair before wrapping the towel around my waist.

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Connor stood in the tub, scrubbing the water from his hair before drying his body. He wrapped the towel around his waist, distracted as his eyes wandered to his scarred wrists, ankles, hips..
He swallowed, working his jaw distantly.

[Attyston Thomas]

I look up as he stops moving, following his gaze to his scars. "Connor..." I state, hoping to somehow snap him out of it. "You should go to bed." I state, reaching voer to push his hair out of his face.

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Conbor blinked and bit his lip, finally looking up at him guiltily. His eyes watered as his hair was brushed aside, and he held onto Attyston's shoulder to step out of the tub.

[Attyston Thomas]

I lightly place a hand on his waist to make sure he didn't fall before I hand him a towel, wrapping my own around my waist. I push my hair out of my face, tossing the clothes I'd been wearing into the hamper. "I'll go get us both some clean clothes." I say before opening the bathroom door to walk out and start down the hallway. I pull open a drawer before pulling some random clothes out and starting back down the hallway to the bathroom.

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Connor watched him go, wrapping the towel around his waist and holding his wrists out. He traced one with the fingers of his other hand thoughtfully, chewing on his lip. That urge to cut was there, and it tore him apart woth guilt inside. He looked up sadly as Attyston returned woth clothes, felt the tears spill over. His exhausted body just couldn't hold all those bundled emotions inside.

[Attyston Thomas]

I step in to see tears starting to fall down his face and I drop the clothes onto the sink counter before pulling Connor into my arms. I run my hands along his back soothingly, pressing my lips to his shoulder. "What's wrong?" I ask softly. What a stupid question. What wasn't wrong? What had gone right for him?

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"I-I don't know anymore.." Connor choked. He was just..sad inside. He hugged him tight, shivering a bit. "Stupid f-fucking addictions.." He sniffled, wiping at his eyes.

[Attyston Thomas]

A frown crosses my face as he spoke. I don't reply, just holding Connor to me. I really didn't know what to say, I didn't know how to make things right.. and it ate me up inside. What type of boyfriend was I not to be consoling him, not to be fixing him? I pull back slightly to press my lips to his cheek before handing him the clean clothes before removing my towel to pull mine on. "Nap time." I state, hanging up my towel for it to dry.

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Connor drew in a breath, nodded in agreement. He slowly pulled on his clothes, hanging his towel and taking Att's hand. He paused to kiss him tenderly before he let go. "Are y-you staying up?" If so, he would sleep on the couch.

[Attyston Thomas]

I run my hands through my damp hair and voer my face as he gets dressed, wanting to just fall over and pass out. I open my green eyes for my gaze to fall on Connor, my expression gentle. I meet his lips happily before he pulls away. "Nah, its nearly six but.. its been a long hour or so," I reply, shaking my head as I start out of the bathroom and down the hallway, our fingers interlaced.

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Connor nodded, following afte him slowly before he wandered into the room and towards the bed. He climbed into it and snuggled up under the blankets, blue eyes peeking out as he waited for Attyston.