Don't Ask, Don't Tell; Jason.

[Calden LeCoste]

I really felt guilty about Jason paying for everything. Given, I wasn't actively searching for a job, but, I felt like a burden. He payed the bills and I just sorta.. hung out. Maybe this feeling was part of the reason I was sitting beside a dumpster in an alley behind Fyree, with a bottle in hand at midnight. I'd told Jason that I was just going out for something really fast, but I just felt like being alone for a while.
I jump as the back door slams open and an obviously drunk guy is tossed out to fall to the floor. I stare at him cautiously as he slurs curses at the shut door before he turns and spots me. A grin crosses his face and he stumbles towards me and I stand so that he wasn't towering over me.
"I'll give you $20 if you let me blow you." he offers, already reaching for my belt and I push him away, and outraged look on my face. But.. I could give the money to Jason.. to help with bills, for groceries.
He seems to sense my hesitation and fumbles in his pockets for a moment before shoving a crumpled bill towards me and dropping to his knees.

I grab my bottle and hurry down the alley, my face blushing red with shame as I take a swig of jack. What'd I done? But.. he'd given me a fifty instead of a twenty, and I wasn't about to argue with that. I'm so lost in thought that I slam into the back of someone and I stutter an apology before his eyes meet mine.
"Yo, here, man, have some." he grins easily, passing a few tablets into my hand before he almost seemed to disappear. I look at the colorful pills in my hand, at the cute pictures on them.. ecstasy. My hazel eyes widen but I eventually out them into my pocket before starting out of the alley and down the sidewalk, back towards the apartment.

[Jason Monroe]

I lean against the couch and close my blue eyes, holding onto Calden's pillow and ignoring most of the sounds from outside. My head was beginning to ache and I knew that it was time to sleep but I wanted to wait for Calden. A huff escapes me and I'm soon against the couch, sleep over coming me. The back of my eyelids tried to form pictures which looked more like small monsters, something a child would draw. Hopefully, Calden was okay when he got home. My fingers trail over the pillow before I turn and lean against the corner of the couch, shivering lightly but knowing I was too passed out to do anything. Somehow, I unconsciously knew each move I made. I loved and hated it.

[Calden LeCoste]

I start up the stairs and stick my key into the lock and step through the open door, shutting is carefully behind me. I look over to where Jason was laying on the couch, my pillow against him. I sigh at the time- well past midnight. But, at least summer had started. I push my hair out of my face and screw the cap back onto the bottle, walking into the kitchen to set it in the cupboard before slipping down the hallway to hide the tablets in a rolled up pair or socks that I always avoided wearing because of how uncomfortable they were. I stuff them into the bottom of the drawer before returning to the living room to pull off my Vans and crawl onto the couch beside Jason, wrapping my arms around him. I was just glad that he was asleep and wouldn't notice that my belt wasn't on the loop it always was.

[Jason Monroe]

I feel someone come beside me and smile slightly, leaning closer. The body was very familiar so there was no reason for me to freak out and try to murder anyone like I normally would. My eyes part slightly and I press a kiss to his lips before closing my eyes and resting my head against Calden. "Welcome back, love," I barely mumble, already headed back to sleep. I really couldn't tell if I was awake or asleep anymore but I guess I would find out in the morning. My fingers lace with his and I'm soon asleep against him.
The light hits my eyes in an odd direction and a groan escapes me until I roll over and fall to the floor. I huff but stay there, pulling Calden's pillow over my head and trying to sleep again. As long as Calden didn't wake up, I knew I could. It was all just up to him deciding if he wanted to or not.

[Calden LeCoste]

I smile as his lips press to mine before closing my eyes and snuggling against him happily, trying to push the thoughts out of my mind. I groan softly as Jason rolls voer me to hit the floor and I turn to lay on my stomach, hiding my face from the light as I passed out.

I blink open my eyes and roll over before sitting up, groaning at the light that hurt my eyes, at the headache that was already raging. I sigh and shakily get to my feet, going over to angrily flip the lights off before returning to the couch, accidentally stepping on Jason as I did so.

[Jason Monroe]

I look up when Calden moves before shoving my head under a pillow and closing my eyes when he flips off the lights. I don't notice him step on me and begin to doze off again, my fingers wrapped around his hand as he laid back onto the couch. I was so use to holding him in some way that I always tended to find some way to make it work. After about thirty minutes, I'm asleep and calmly dreaming of what I hoped our future would be like. None of this would happen, I knew but I could dream.

[Calden LeCoste]

I start a bt as his hand clasps mine and I lace our fingers together, trying to ignore the ehadache and the guilt building up inside of me. I felt.. dirty. I free my hand and sit up, rubbing at my face before standing and carefully stepping over Jason. I walk back to the bathroom, shutting the door ebhind me and pulling my shirt over my head. I look at myself in the mirror, hating myself. I sigh softly and step out of my skinny jeans and boxers before turning the water on hot.

[Jason Monroe]

I look up when my hand is released to see Calden walking to the bathroom and I frown before getting up and following him in after I hear the water start to run. My arms wrap around him and I kiss his cheek with a smile as I lean against him. "Morning, baby," I mumble before groggily pushing his hair from his face and smiling. Already, I could tell something was going on but I wasn't sure if I wanted to know or not so I decide not to mention it.

[Calden LeCoste]

I jump as the door opens and try to smile as his arms wrap around my body. "Hey." I murmur, hoping that my voice didn't sound as guilty as I thought it did. But.. I'd gotten $50, money that could go to groceries and such things. I turn in Jason's arms to lightly press my lips to his before pulling back to tug his shrit over his head. "You're getting in with me." I state, smirking at him, almost flirtaciously.

[Jason Monroe]

I smile lightly, trying to ignore the emotion that came into his voice- it was anything but happy. He turns and tugs my shirt over my head as I chuckle lightly, kissing his neck lightly before taking off my shorts and looking up at him. My hand runs through his hair again and I hope my worry doesn't sneak into my eyes. I knew something was going on but I trusted him enough and hoped that it wouldn't be for nothing. He was the only one I could really see myself being with for the rest of my life.

[Calden LeCoste]

I grin and tilt my head to the side as his lips press to my neck, a hand running down his chest. I wiggle my eyebrows at him playfully before brushing my hair out of my face and I move the shwoer curtain to step in, the hot water hitting my pale skin. I make a face but don't change it- I really did deserve the pain. "Come on, baby." I purr, holding out my arms to him. I hoped that I could get his mind off the fact that I was obviously off- he could probably sense it.

[Jason Monroe]

I chuckle lightly before looking at him waggling his eyebrows and rolling my eyes. He backs into the shower and I follow him, wrapping my arms around him and kissing him lightly. Yeah, he was trying to hide it still but I'd allow him to for right now. Usually, the shower was the one place we were just ourselves after a bad experience or something. I lace my fingers with his and pull back to rest my forehead against his with a smile as I kiss his nose and do the same again.

[Calden LeCoste]

I giggle as his arm wrap around my again, though it sounded a little forced even to my own ears. "I love you.." I mumble, burying my face in Jason's shoulder for a moment before I pull back. Our foreheads meet and his lips press to my nose and I smile. "Here." I murmur, reaching for the body wash and squeezing some onto my hands before setting it back and rubbing it over his front, a smirk on my face.

[Jason Monroe]

I kiss his head once it hits my shoulder and smile. "I love you, too," I say, looking at him with a small smile before he begins washing my chest. A chuckle comes from me and I look at him before kissing his nose again. "So, it's going to be one of those showers," I say, winking at him before grabbing his shampoo and lathering it in his hair with a smile. Our fingers lace for a second before continuing on his hair with a smile.

[Calden LeCoste]

A soft blush crosses my face as he winks at me and I shrug innocently, tilting my head down as he started to wash my hair. Our hands interlock for a moment before Jason continues to run his hands through my hair. Suddenly, a wave of.. emotion washes over me and a few tears fall down my face, though you couldn't tell. What had I done? I'd betrayed Jason.. but, it was for the good of him.. right? I lower lip trembles for a moment. My head hurt, I was tired, the water was too hot, and I was just a ... jerk. I step udner the water, rinsing my hair as more tears fell down my face.